Letter to My Son...
Well Buddy, I was going to write you a letter before I met you, but now I'm sitting here while you're napping and are consuming my every thought of every day since you made your appearance, in complete awe of how much I love you. I'm glad that this message didn't happen before you were born because there is absolutely NO WAY I could've known what you'd do to my heart and my mind! I thought that it would be difficult to love a second kid like I love my first, I thought that I would have it completely figured out, I thought that I would be in total control of my emotions and thoughts, but none of that is true and frankly, none of that matters right now. Right now, I still have another month with you at home. Yes, I'm freaking out, yes I'm craving some sort of consistency, but that's only when you nap...when you're awake and we get to hang, I totally get lost in your baby blues and that giant smile that I'm convinced gets a little shinier every day that you choose to gift it!
Brooks Allen, you stole my heart! You've completed our family and for that I thank you! Watching your sister be so gentle and patient and LOVING with you literally makes me melt. You two are the greatest accomplishments that I could've had in this world. We've still got a long way to go, a lot more learning, both of us...all of us, but you guys have given me a purpose, a meaning a WHY that I've never dreamt of! Thank you for choosing me to be your mom and for entrusting me with the most important job in the world for the second time! I will do everything in my power not to let you down!